Grief

                                                                          GRIEF 

                                         Credit - https://www.cancertodaymag.org/Pages/Winter2020-2021/Anticipatory-Grief.aspx

                         Have you ever thought of a situation being alone in the middle of a desert?

Having no one to call out for help... all you can feel is numb...all you can see is darkness and all you can hear is the voice of raindrops. 

I was too young and immature when I handled depression for the first time in my life. The journey was never easy and it will never be. Even when days and months flew by all I felt was an elephantine heaviness over my heart, there were days where I didn't feel myself and there were days I wanted to cry badly but there were no tears in my eyes all arid. The truth was I was too weak to cry or show any sort of emotion, both mentally and physically I was fragile. Even when they all said " it shall too pass" I knew it won't and it will forever remain in me. Fast forward to the present it has been 3 years and still recovering even though after all these years passed there are days still feel the same numbness within me, only one thing changed my perspective towards it rather than treating it as a burden start embracing it. 

Rome was not built in a day just like that one day you will also swim across all the odds that have been bugging you. All you need to do is no matter what, brace yourself and be confident.